Why..Why..Why...

When a person refuses to accept your advise that violates rules and regulation of profession, those moments I used get a urge to blast, utter uncontrolled words, body heats up as pressure jumps. I used to encounter such thing not only in my job but also in public, when a stranger gives harsh statement. Mostly, I had regretted for reacting to such moments without controlling urge. I decided to express displeasure in my facial gesture. Later, I realized, that it became a my weakness and others took it as opportunity, to  tease, upset, distress me. 

My calmness too became my weakness, some started to misjudge us and irritate us with words. Some judged with physical appearance, on my native, on societal  subdivision. My mind and body expressed dullness, that can be easily noticed with the eyes. These thing slowly changed me in stead of tackling them. My confidence was eroded by sort of humiliation. 

I raised so many 'Why...why...why question to self and the God'

why it happening to me

Why I am like this

Why Iam easily pressurized by others

Why god made me like this

Why appearance so bad

Why I can't perform

Why can't I build confidence

Why 

Oh My God

Oh My God, even a person is induced to produce and direct such a movie 'OMG'.

It was a month back, one of my friend gave me positive feedback on the rationalistic view explicitly focused in this movie. My first concise perception was negative. Later received similar view from other friends, 'it's a good movie'.
Consciously, again my mind and consciousness refused to accept it.

recently while browsing some of the regular torrent site, came across this movie. so decided to the experience out of it. I put myself under discussion on this movie theme, content and screenplay.

Conclusion of self discussion is, this movie 'OMG' is a concept movie. concept is rationalistic approach toward the expenditure and obsessed misconception of rituals and orthodox nature, which leads the life to more religious than spiritual.

Had experience one of the best movie that I had seen earlier is 'Anbe Sivam', it had made give me a mind-blowing experience. in contra to 'OMG', Anbe sivam had tried to pinnacle of rationalistic approach rather than rituals deceived to show the truthfulness.

'OMG' had failed impress in the aspect to focus on the theme with inadequate content. Using couple of slogam from Gita isnt enough to emphasis on the theme. To say, this is also a misconception of rationalism.

Just thought to explain myself in a pictorial representation, end up in Bell Curve. as in SD we cant talk about average, here too we cant talk about average conception of people about the true nature, because it (two extremes and its intermediate level) is evenly distributed and has more than one way of reaching the highest level. Simple to say, being rational or religious wont let you to realise the truth behind the nature. I should declare that, I not qualified to say this as only spiritually elevated has, normally they wont.

'OMG' in line with the movice 'Ramana', which is about well established anit corruption team operation secreatly in goverment service, executing the capital punishment for top corrup personnel on a department, whereas the content they used to express is media play being used to interact with a programm (to say) which is secerectly delivered to the head of the Anti corruption team.

Concept is extraordinary, but the contect is below average. This is applicable to 'OMG' too. bringin up the gita in this story is not established properly, its true and no one can ignore the Gita has answer for all the question on rationalism, religious and life. Also Gita or Bible or Quran ment to do tha same job.

Reason is,

In schools, collegues and in a universities, sylabus for a course is same for everyone who is undertaking the course, still output of what student had learned is not same (both application and implication), it is different w.r.t to the individual, their perception and so many factors does it. In order to deseminate the True knowledge of the Nature, its not sufficient to render to the common man in a single bibliograph version, it need more that one source of knowledge, experience and practice it by a common. Even though having so many source to reach the ultimatum, only a less number of people are trying to attain it with complete understanding, if it is only the context of the havenly published bibliography, our world would had been in negative scale of morale without source, knowledge and practice discover it.

Pursuit of Happiness

Here I am sensing the need to pursuit for the happiness, within. I fell keeping our self happy will always keep our mind fresh, active, energetic, proactive, aggressive(on minor note). Decided to start expressing thing that might be in my mind which will push me in into depression, make me dull, loss the confidence, feel desperate. This will be a opportunity for me to disclose my inner thought so as to unburden myself from all the unwanted, unnecessary, fettle thoughts.

The Right to Educate and Teckies, a Passive note

Our Government really want to do something to the people, but going with various commissions to study, clarify and confirm those plans were till passed on to another commission to confirm that.

These scenario hadn't stop some ministry to stay back, On introducing the The Right of Children to Free and Compulsory Education Act in 2010, Government had shown its determination in strengthening the basic elementary education. This news is about detention.

Another landmark, We are here to produce cheaper technology gadget with cheaper labor too. This also came out in the process of enhancing the children, 'Laptop for each child'

Time contribute our excel to the Our society.

Other Half - Reality

Its 12.15pm, pulling the Aluminum frame glass door painted mild green I entered the Canteen’s first door following my Colleagues. To restrict sand storm it has two doors at entrance and another at other side of the corridor in-between to the canteen. As I went through corridor and pulling the canteen door, it was almost occupied, there were 5X6 tables with fixed chairs. I went passed the Arabian, European and Filipino counter to Indian counter. I tried to look in to the dishes on the vessel tray. It’s mutton. No I hate mutton, its fat and cholesterol.

Dinner recipes in the menu are good, when it is served in the canteen it is hard to eat it, it is neither spicy nor delicious. First thing that came to my mind is my weight, Iam limiting myself with diet to reduce, but it never seems to be. Diet? Ya… Nowadays I am avoiding dinner and taking fruits, One Apple a Day will be Doctor away. Seems good!

Picking fork and spoon, slowly looking at the items on the tray, I moved on then I decided to go for Sri Lankan curry, its beef curry. Previously, I had tasted Lankan dish, it was like one prepared by a person tried to cook a masala curry first time.

But here I am left with no more option other than beef, even I can’t apt veg menu b’cos it will even worst then Non-Veg recipes, tasteless. Either Veg or Non-Veg it has to be taken with pickles only.

Before moving to Beef, I saw the canteen in charge bringing chicken Kavab fry, Cool, I went with it. Holding the plate I turned around to locate the empty seat I saw our office tea boy taking a seat, next to few tables I saw my colleague, I kept the plate opposite to him and moved to take Kaboose and curd.

Kaboose is wheat product like chapathi, it can be said Arabian chapathi. This is one of diet recipe! Curd is one of my company’s product it is accessible at our convenience and to our requirement.

Once I sat before my plate with pickle bottle and started to eat Kaboose with curd, at far I saw a older person, he is wearing high visibility jacket and it was too dirty. He took to many Kaboose, came and sat opposite side nearby colleague. His position show he is waiting for something, may be his coworker I thought.

He is not our company staffs, as we are provided with more than basic needs and facilities to bring the hygiene from within. He is a Pakistani also, I am guessed from his turban and he should be working as mason or helper, b’cos most of the mason here are from Pakistan.

He didn’t have any plate, he kept the Kaboose over the table, No I felt he don’t have hygiene. I was looking, how he is going to have that Kaboose without curry or curd. He looked around and fixed his eye on the pickle bottle, and then he took that from my side. As our tea boy crossed our table, my eye went to this old Paki, I wonder how he is going to use it, he searched our table, and He saw my plate and notice spoon which I used to take pickle. He asked to give him the spoon in gesture, I show him the tray near the counter where he will get it. He refused my idea. He inclined the bottle as pickle came out and lay over the Kaboose, and started to consume it.

Few minutes later to move from our table. In middle, I saw him taking food from our Tea boy’s plate. He was taking it with a spoon. I am surprised to see him to do that.

Do people such a act in this country, is there any need to do such a act. This is really not good who are working in this country. This is the case of few Indians in some scale of profession also.

My taught went along with him, such people, Everyone is here to earn money, I have seen people working 10yrs, 15 yrs even 20yrs here, who avail leave 20 days twice a year some a month a year. Only few people are allowed to avail few months that’s on some rare circumstance only.

These people are really sacrificing their life for their family, some getting their life lost here. Thing is observed here is People who were racist and took this world towards the destruction of nature were ruling the most of the companies, some of the people from our country are brought here, exploited, unpaid, discriminated and few losing their life here, leaving their parents, wife, children’s. Worst case is that such person is being hatred by the people for whom he had lost his life when he returns back to his home.

Once I went to center of the capital city Batha, you will hate to visit this place again, b’cos it was like town hall road during Diwali, so nasty it seems as you find people from 5 countries.

I wonder when all these people are going to work in India itself without losing some moments of their life. This wasn’t case with China, then why it’s with India.